Blurred Summer

Summer of 2016, is most defiantly a blur of bars being popped, alcohol, and weed. Summer fun and Summer love. but in some sense also a deep depression that was hard to shake that followed into my next semester in college. made waking up hard going to class difficult, i didn't have motivation fro anything except sparking one in the morning. A lot of things lend to this  unforgiving relationships trips down memory lane with my parents about my childhood i toke so long to block off. i don't think anyone can every understand the trauma i went through those years, but i chose to speak to no one to hold it ion to deal with it on my own. i dint want to be known as the girl that was sexually assaulted for years by her older cousin. Wow. first time i say that out loud, my parents knew of it but they knew it as a one time thing that they must have figured i didn't remember but the truth was i did i hated him the sight of him everything about him. and they forced me to speak to him. i had to see him he was family. its not till i shed the tiniest light on to the issue that my mom and dad began to realize i might been really affected by it after all. that maybe i was depressed but i was over it i had dealt with it i had forgiven him. i was tired of being angry all the time. but it made see the world in a new way.... 1 blunt...2 blunts... bong.. the hotbox trap van my grandma gave me to use as a car was the living memory of summer 2016. From cold late nights asleep with him to summer hot days stuck on 45 because my van over heated. 2016 was a year of many success but also many heartbreaks i graduated high school BARELY, but i did it. went to Cancun for the summer were i met tons of out the country hotties. From Spain, Italy, Venezuela, Cuba and of course your US hotties from New York, Miami, California. it was a trip dream come true amazing views drinks by the pool because FYI mexico the drinking age is 18 and i was 19! 2016 had its highs but it had its lows. Depression hit i think when school started it was so hard to make my parents happy they were always upset with me taking late classes, working late, no car. i mean what else did they want from i was being stretched 100 ways. so i gave up didn't go to class anymore instead went and stoned all day long. but that wasn't it weed wasn't the only thing consumed, bars ohhhh how they made me feel nothing. no regret no worries, just dazed and relaxed. wrecked my moms cars on bars lol opps. was totally shitting bricks at first then got home and KO. i think i toke my new born freedom to really high measures in smoking as i pleased and having sex as i pleased. keeping people at the house over night because no one was home. but you guys have to understand i had strict parents i never did anything bad until i could drive and go out and be alone as i pleased. that when i broke out my shell. there is a lot of things about summer 2016 or the year in general i cant remember because i was so high or drunk. but all in all it was the best year yet.